Day 2 - 4? - I'm losing track...

I've been pretty slack with my blogging for this weekend! So sorry everyone (Audience of 1!).Ok well I better give the food summary first:

Confessions: Thursday night - Becky (my cousin) woke me up in the middle of the night as she had brought jam donuts home for everyone. In my sleepy befuddled state I ate one. ARRGGG!! After such a good day too :(.

Friday -
Brekky: 2 pieces of toast
Lunch: Chicken soup & 2 bread
Dinner: Chicken roll (Was going to get chips to go with it but I refrained and got no butter and only a small amount of gravy!)
Confessions: 1 ice cream at the movies... :(

Saturday -
Brekky: None
Lunch: Baked beans on toast
Dinner: BBQ (Mousse for dessert that I only had one spoonful of to be polite!)
Confessions: Well I wouldn't have any but SOMEONE made me feel guilty for not eating the chocolates that were offered to me! So I ate ONE and then I think it had nuts in it and I had a rash all the next day so who's fault is THAT!! (Yeah partly mine I know, but I am working on the self control thing! I have discovered, I think I eat more food for the sake of not hurting other peoples feelings than I do for myself! Hmm..)

Sunday -
Brekky: 2 pieces of toast (I'm thinking that since I eat so much other bread maybe I should switch brekky to cereal, but is that just as bad? I don't know.)
Lunch: Coco Pops (TERRRIIBBLLLEE!!!)
Dinner: Take away pizza (It was for celebratory purposes!! Eating for others again... I sense a pattern!)
Confessions: NONE! Woo!! You would not believe my self control for that day, hungry sooo many times and I just drank water!

So I was going to weigh myself on the weekend but just couldn't face it. I lost some weight over the holidays thanks to our previous Holiday Challenge and started to feel a bit better about myself again but if I get on those scales it will all be gone. For ages now I have lost my interest in all things 'social' because I feel so bad about myself. Still not back to wanting to go anywhere (so the excuses will keep coming, sorry friends, it ain't that I don't like you, it's that I don't like myself! Ha! How philosophical does that sound! Actually, it kind of resembles another phrase "It's not you, it's me!".

Wow, this blogging thing is very cathartic! I think I better stop now before I reveal my inner secrets!

Ciao!